Sorry but I feel God only cares for the bold, beautiful and rich and not for ppl like me.

i think u mistake dear,Allah(God)not look at our bodies(blonds ,rich,poor) but He look at our hearts

I came to greet you with the coming of Eid but I saw what you wrote :"I feel God only cares for the bold, beautiful and rich and not for ppl like me".
God doesn't care how you or anyone look. God created us different in color , race, looks, and even social status but that doesn't mean he is unjust . We are all human beings . Richness can be a curse and can be a blessing, the same thing with beauty. It is us who can make use of what we have in order to please God.
God loves us but we rarely thank him for what we have. If we are going through hardships in life that doesn't mean that God hates us. Remember that all the prophets and Messengers of God went through pain, sadness and severe calamities. Prophet Ibrahim (Abraham) the one that is called ( Khalil Al-Rahamn) - meaning the most" intimate friend" or "loved one" to Allah was deserted and disowned by his father and his people throw him in a burning fire but God saved him. He didn't say or even think that God didn't love him for letting him go through hardship. This life is "Daru Al Amal" which means a place for work. You can't have everything you wish for in this life but if you are paitent , God will reward you with a better place i.e heaven.Heaven is the only place where you won't feel sad , depressed . It is the only place that you will find a true , eternal happiness. Heaven is the place you should work for . Ask God to grant you a place in heaven. Allah loves to hear his believers pray for him.
Allah is merciful. He is more mericiful than a mother to her new-born baby. We live our lives in a constant struggle that won't go away until we die. We struugle with ourselves to be better human being and better Muslims. We struggle to defeat the temptation of Satan or the evil inclination we have. The more we struggle to purify ourselves , the more we become true believers. We all search for peace inside or eternal happiness but this can never be achieved in this life. We can only taste the sweetness of faith that will make us stronger to go through life. Nothing can be eternal here , feelings change, beauty fade, health also fade away, money increase and decrease...
God wants all the best for us. He loves us and cares for us ."Abu Hurairah, may Allah be pleased with him, reported:
Allah's Messenger (may peace be upon him) said: Allah, the Exalted and Glorious, stated: I am near to the thought of My servant as he thinks about Me, and I am with him as he remembers Me. And if he remembers Me in his heart, I also remember him in My Heart, and if he remembers Me in assembly I remember him in assembly, better than his (remembrance), and if he draws near Me by the span of a palm, I draw near him by a cubit, and if he draws near Me by a cubit I draw near him by the space (covered by) two arms. And if he walks towards Me, I rush towards him. "
Allah can give us hardship at any times in our lives to test us and help us become better believer .
"Do people think that they will be left alone because they say: "We believe," and will not be tested.
And We indeed tested those who were before them."

In a Hadith Qudsi (sacred hadith), the Prophet, peace and blessings be upon him, quotes Allah as saying, “I am as My servant thinks of Me; so let him think of Me as He wishes to think.”
Allah never NEVER wrong us, it is we who have wronged ourselves and wronged HIM.

There is a good book titled "Purification of the Soul" by Jamaal al-Din M. Zarabozo. It is a great book.

If you need anything please , do not hesitate. We are sisters in Islam.