I have been sitting here alone and hurting because i miss you. I have been wondering what can i do to bring you back and many times i knew, you would be the only one that would make the choice of comming back or not. I have been praying and hoping that the next day, you will be brought back by the beautiful Sun and you will warm my heart like you did so many times before. When i was sad, you had a smile for me, when i cried, you kissed my tears, when i laughted you were there to laugh with me and when i had questions, you showed me the answers..
Where are you now? Who is holding you close and tells you I WILL BE WITH YOU TONIGHT, TOMORROW AND EVERY NIGHT, EVERYTIME YOU NEED ME..I WILL BE ALL YOURS; forget the pain, the tears, the craziness of life and get lost in my arms again..like you used to. Look into my eyes again and feel my heart in them. Look at me and see me trembling with desire, touch me again and feel me loosing in your arms, kiss me and show me that i am the one and only that your heart wants.
The night has come again and i am alone with just memories, hopes, desires of a love that slipped between my fingers. I hear you calling me sometimes and i turn hoping that is you..no, no, it was just my imagination again..who was that? You come into my dreams sometimes and i remember you..you are the one who loved me once, you are the one that said NOTHING CAN BREAK US APPART, yes, it is YOU, I remember everything you said, everything you promissed me, everything you wished for and maybe..i couldn't offer it to you. Maybe just myself couldn't make you happy, maybe just my heart wasn't enough to make you stay, maybe just our dreams were not strong enough to withstand the power of the wind and..i know you. I feel you, i hear you, you are still here, around me, your steps..i still hear them in the middle of the night, your breath in my ear is still warm, your kisses on my skin have been like a beautiful memory in times of passion. I still remember you, you are the one who came to me once and said I AM HERE TO STAY. I remember you being like a Lion in front of everyone, to defend me..your woman, your weakness, your warm body that gave you power at night, so you can be strong again during the day..
I remember you, you are the one that i met in my past life, you stayed with me, in my dreams, during this life, until we met again..and now you are here.
I remember you, every beat of your heart next to mine, made me feel special because you chose to be with me..from all the choices you had, from all the women you could love or be with..you came to me.
Where are you now? Don't you remember me? I was the one you chose life after life and i am here now..just hold me.

HELLO FLORIDA DO NOT LOOSE HOPE YOUR POST SOUNDS SO DEPRESSING. NEVER GIVE UP ON ANYTHING THAT YOU FEEL IS WORTHWHILE.